I Heard Myself Cry In My Former Daughter In Law's Words

Spiritual Ministries Mind Spirit Body Vibrational Medicine Research, Healing and Education Center.
Letter To Brad And Angeline
Jada Stone, Research Center Contributing Associate Editor

Dear All One Family:
I have decided that it is time to take the bull puckie by the horns...instead of the tail...hahahehehe...I hope that what you find contained within the contents of this posting will bring you clarity in your own interactions with others in the world...

This is a true account and is a happening as I write...so please be patient with me for not only am I a trying to awaken that which already be awaken...I am hope filled that I will rekindle a spark that shouldn't be allowed to go dim for even a second, for it is that special of a relationship that I see between my son and his former wife and mother of his daughter...

My former daughter in law is on one hand a trying to stay afloat in unconditional love held out towards my son, while she feels that my son is a trying to hold her under...and get her to admit that it is her fault that he can't see her so clearly...

My my my; victims comes in all colors,ranges, levels and not the same page dwellers you know?

The reason I named this posting such as I did, is because all that my former daughter in law told me as to the reasons why she doesn't want to continue hanging on...to a sinking ship...of love going absolutely no where...are the same as my own...

Simply because unconditional love shared by only one is not a pretty picture...as I listened to her sobs, wishes, regrets and lost time and moments...I revisited all of my own...that I too experienced once I realized that I wasn't "spiritually yoked with my equal," and thus didn't have a chance in hell of going the long way together...

Sort of a kind of, been there and choose the suffering no more kind of thing.

I guess that I was able to give her all the insights that I had to hold onto when I had to cross over the lost and move into the self discovered ones...of God/Jesus and Holy Spirit...

I held this special former daughter in law...in the achy breakey visions that I once called yesterday and wondered...what part I could have played in her a repeating my same action...and as well, wondering if how if at all, I could have changed the direction of how this flame retardant relationship could have lost its flammable status.

You know mothers have this problem of always a trying to figure things out...and in the after math blame themselves for not saying enough or too much...it is just how the world is a turning...at this time.

The Children a always, almost a blaming the generation before them...

The only defense that I feel right now is the defense that generally sons take after most, their fathers or step fathers...and being both my sons love both husband, step father and former boyfriends that I allowed them to get close to...I would have to say that perhaps...the males that I chose plus my father and brothers...played a larger role than the female parental figures that my world and theirs held...

So I feel better just by having said that...

What made my heart skip a beat, was the deep seated hurt that my brave former daughter in law was a carrying for she told me that just recently that she had petitioned God/Jesus and Holy Spirit to change the heart of my son so that he could see her once again as he did the day that they married and he had asked God/Jesus and Holy Spirit for her hand in marriage...

God/Jesus and Holy Spirit with the assistance of Job as well, were a telling her that her prized love was a hindrance to her path, for he just couldn't quite get the same page that she was on...and thus she was battling the karma of a relationship that was only at 1/2 steam forward potential...and sometimes when this relationship was a falling further than 1/2 potential when she allowed him to push her buttons within her...and sometimes in the moment, lost true direction and divine intercession...in what she called her mission/purpose and plan...

For all Angeline wanted, was what she saw was possible if only she could get my son to see what it was that she and myself as well saw...the love rekindled in God/Jesus and Holy Spirit which would radiate down to her and her children and his...if only they could become a family that "prays together, a staying together."

Thus she knew as I did...that the walks hand in hand a walking down the beach of life together...could become a possibility instead of a delusional dream manifested by one...herself.

The battle that I had at hand after she told me of all the things that he told her and accused her of...while stating how lonely he was and that perhaps he should give a call to his former fiance who he knew still cared about him, being she didn't and didn't come a running at his beckoned call...

The battle was that when Angeline prayed and asked God/Jesus and Holy Spirit for direction, Angeline received the message that her former husband would have one shot and one shot alone at trying to turn back the hands of time on their relationship...being this was the first indiscretion since his return from Iraq, my former daughter in law...took it that this was the stated moment in time...one shot and one shot out.

I told her that by no means did this moment count as that moment...for since his return...my son hadn't dated her as of old...and their talks together were still at a minimal...and he hadn't even chose to go to church with her...so he had no idea what a world with her would be like for Our God, doesn't give us glimpses of chances...before making His ruling that all are lost...for we all have until our last breath to make all things brand new...

I told her that when she told him that the back yard light would always stay on...and when ever his lighthouse started to dim, he could get strength and solidarity from his divine contact with her...

For she told me that she does love my son more than she did yesterday when they said their I Do's...yet, the whole while a wishing that he would surrender his life totally and truly to Our Father...and by so doing...demonstrate this action by moving into the peace, comfort and joy that should happen when one knows beyond any doubt...that all things are on purpose and then are able to put the victim part of themselves that feels separate from God/Jesus and Holy Spirit...away.

I also told her that the battle between my son and his best friend was also a silly thing on both of their parts...for they both are more like brothers than both my sons at times, appears...for both Brad and his best friend are jokesters and spend their time a trying to make others laugh...sometimes their humor is mistaken by either or both of them...for that is just the quality of Don Rickles joking brings all that participate in them off humor/slanted comments...

One doesn't know when the other is joking or a simply speaking their truths...thus with relationships that are compromised with heavy alcohol consumption...reality viewing becomes even more limited...a.k.a...physical confutation...sometimes.

When I heard that physical blows had followed...and Brad's best friend a no longer waiting be associated with my son...I told my former daughter in law this...tell him that I will be upset with him if he hurt my son...for him of all people know that my son thinks the world about him, for if he didn't, why would he hold hurt in believing that his best friend could be a sleeping with his former wife and one that he will love until the end of time?

Good friends don't take from others that others are in hopes of one day re securing?

Perhaps it was the off color jokes that my son spoke of his best friend's wife or girlfriend that first made Brad's best friend...throw out in the mix, that he too had tasted the sweets of his love interest former mate...Tit for tat...who knows how alcohol if allowed to be heavily consumed, play on the already Post traumatic Stress Disorder individual...

Whose at fault and who isn't...doesn't really matter...what matters is that alcohol causes one to become more depressed instead of enlightened...especially when consumed at over moderation level...

I also told her that being he continued to stay with the drift of thought provoking reflections that she had in reality did what Brad's best friend stated, that meant that he definitely didn't trust or have any faith in all that she was a telling him and I wondered if perhaps...again he had gotten that ill gotten virtue honestly from those male representatives that I had chosen to gift him with...

So even if my son Brad called me the teacher of jealousy and distrust...again, I want him to understand, were I the one to be jealous and distrusting in the relationships with those that I loved and cared enough to fill both him and his brother's world...would I not still be in those broken relationships for fear of letting them go, to find another more compatible mate?

Plus being sons copy more the behavior of the dads and step dads, instead of the mother...anyways that is my story and again, I am a sticking to it...

I also remember a telling both my sons that when I found myself only loving their father and step father and no longer in love with them...I took my leave...so that they could find the one that would make their world a lot brighter than I was able to...

I loved my ex's that much!

Like a butterfly, I set them free, "knowing if they were allowed to return, it was meant to be..."

I also told my former daughter in law...who chose to divorce my son and not the other way around...that divorce is nothing more than a firing...and that my son was fired due to things that he created that caused her to distrust and no longer have faith in him as being all that she knew he could be for himself and those that love and model after him...

When my former daughter in law, through a near death experience, revisited the love that still remained for her former husband...my son somehow adopted the attitude that all his former wife was a doing was a trying to get back at him because he had found a new life with someone else...

Never realizing that the new life with someone else...was only a mirage of what he had once had with his former wife...and when he discovered this...he took a job overseas so that he could clear his head, heart and body and be able to see what was real...

I believe my son hasn't arrived at the point he needs to be, to have and to hold this special relationship...I don't know how many more victims he will chose to catch and hold close to him...all I can do is pray always that he will awaken and not allow that time to be so far off in the distance...for I believe that this former daughter in law is a doing exactly what I am a doing...

A Waiting For God/Jesus and Holy Spirit
To put it on our hearts who it is that He wills our life to be shared with...and we both are content to just idle away the days, hours and minutes until that single man arrives...all others that once were in contention can only hope that we are still single and free when they finally wake up and smell the coffee...

Be Blessed Always
Love, Light and Peace
Jada

I Believe As Well....

Spiritual Ministries Mind Spirit Body Vibrational Medicine Research, Healing and Education Center.
May 23, 2009
Stopping From Tying Up The Golden GooseRev. Tonie C. Wallace Dream-Founder and Director
Jada Stone, Associate Editor

Dear All One Family:

Just a little email sent me...Holds a powerful message, if you are up for it...
Be Blessed All
Love, Light and Peace

A Birth Certificate shows that we were born.

A Death Certificate shows that we died.
Pictures show that we lived!

I Believe...
That just because two people argue,
doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue,
doesn't mean they do love each other.

I Believe...
That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I Believe...
That we don't have to change friends if
we understand that friends change.

I Believe...
That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I Believe...
That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.

I Believe...
That you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.

I Believe...
That it's taking me a long time
to become the person I want to be.

I Believe...
That you should always leave loved ones with
loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I Believe...
That you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I Believe...
That we are responsible for what
we do, no matter how we feel.

I Believe....
That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I Believe...
That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I Believe...
That money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I Believe..
That my best friend and I can do anything, or nothing, and have the best time.

I Believe...
That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.

I Believe...
That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had, and what you've learned from them.....and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I Believe...
That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I Believe...
That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I Believe...
That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,
but we are responsible for who we become.

I Believe...
That you shouldn't be so eager to find
out a secret. It could change your life Forever.

I Believe...
Two people can look at the exact same
thing and see something totally different.

I Believe...
That your life can be changed in a matter of
hours by people who don't even know you.

I Believe...
That even when you think you have no more to give, if
a friend cries out to you........you will find the strength to help.

I Believe...
That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I Believe...
That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

I Believe...
That you should give this powerful message to all of the people that you believe in. I just did.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;
They just make the most of everything they have.

Thank you God for all the wonderful people who help us
throughout this journey called Life..

May angels guard you and guide you &
May God continue to bless you and keep you.

Children Of The Recession, Part of Life Continues...

Spiritual Ministries Mind Spirit Body Vibrational Medicine Research, Healing and Education Center.
What Is A Wild Card?
Rev. Tonie C. Wallace Dream-Founder and Director
May 23, 2009

Dear All One Family:

What Are My Thoughts On Distrust and Jealousy?
Thanks for asking? Those who know who they are....

My thoughts about distrust and jealousy aren't very pretty, for I too have lived through those days that I couldn't trust even my shadow and to tell you the truth, those moments were my own very worst...

All those that have heard Albert Einstein's theory of relativity, knows well that which I speak..."Simply that all things are made up of energy, some of it good and beneficial for our growth and development, yet lots that isn't...from the simplest molecule to the most explosive dimension that could and hopefully will not cause our planet to tip off of its axis...as predicted by many yesterday age philosophers of old and ancient times...as well as many today's futuristic vision seers...

As to the earth tipping device a coming from a nuclear explosion or several...or an asteroid a falling from the sky...

We were also instructed in Revelations to be prepared for that moment in time that no one knows the exact moment...that Jesus will be a coming here in all of His glory and magnificence!

I believe that the job He left was for all to take on His mantle of comfort, joy and Divine Guidance, His precious Holy Spirit and all those found not a wearing it...perhaps not as well off as those found covered in Their Holy Radiance...

Now I could be wrong and I pray that if I am that Holy Father help me see a better and different way...

Those that can't see their divinity birth right plan...I call these wild cards for they see the big picture, lots differently, yet because I will never stop praying that all begin to see as myself and numerous others that have this divine knowning channel...know what I mean and those that don't...I can only pray that you find its magnificence peace...and continual presence...

Poem by Rudard Kipling, "IF"

IF.....

IF you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: 'Hold on!'

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
' Or walk with Kings - nor lose the common touch,
if neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!



This perhaps is one of my favorite poems of all times...

The parts of it, that state "neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you, and all men count with you, but none too much; that says to me that the only one that should count number one is : God/Jesus and Holy Spirit. When that magical moment ocurs and you know without any doubt that with that power grid of Divine energy, nothing or any one can come against you...and that all things are on purpose, each serving a learning lesson that the individual soul essence needed to experience...rather for self or all others...

Something along the line of "The Sins Of The Parents Will Fall Down Upon The Children For Six Generations, " another biblical kind of thing...perception moment...been having lots of doom and gloom moments in time that I am a trying not to process...yet I did hear a local weather man state yesterday while a giving our weather service news, that Florida's temperatures a bit colder than our own and he also said something like, "no folks, I don't believe the North Pole is now down there." Yet the joke he threw out there...although coincidentally funny...never less he told on himself and that was that he has heard of the 2012 earth shift...

I say, when one holds the vision that the world won't end, only becomes better due to the struggle of major change...a planetary cleansing instead of total destruction is now primarily the two choices we have and hold before us...

I choose transitional change, those that want to choose total destruction, Armagedon, The Rapture...I am not saying that you are wrong, I am only stating once a gain that I have personally asked for a First Class Ticket out of here if you are right and I am not totally convinced...sort of covering both the left and right view point...

So as I keep an eye on the sky...Nasa web sites and such...and visual viewings as Revelations states that we must...I also take in all of God/Jesus and Holy Spirit magesty of design...for I can get lost in the magnificense, yet not too much that I am not paying attention to how the majority are a viewing our world...never fully realizing that they were by viewing it all in such a limited fashion, was helping weaken the structure of belief...that should have been increasing...

When I ponder the energy of crystals and know that all is one mass crystal of energy with masses amounts of thought impressions a going forth from one and all...and if one influences energies towards the negative, that power grows and grows until...the positive is all extinguished from its energetic beingness...

Yet being it is nothing more than energetic organized energy, and all one has to do when an experiencing complete divine drain is refill up with the power source of God/Jesus and Holy Spirit, just by asking for divine intercession...and power to be given back to themselves.

That is also what I believe is meant when we were told in the Bible that we must return as the children we arrived as..."with the faith, trust and belief of a child"...that one that lives in the analytical world of facts and figures would call too simpliest..is supposed to be...

I also heard that over moderated drug and alcohol consumption is merely one trying to recapture the eternal peace and divine highness energy of Home that all will have to graduate towards...when destiny calls everyone back Home.

I for one believe that those who have found the path I have laid out above; will have the chance to stay eternally if they so choose and those that didn't quite get it right, might perhaps have to return to do it all over again...(you know, stuck in Ground Hog Day, kind of thing) Till we get it right...that is, hahahehehe...oh yes, I have personally been stuck in Ground Hog Day, too much...when I lost communication with Our Father/Jesus and Holy Spirit...so I know how dastardly it all is myself...

I also believe the same is for suicides...I believe that the person that commits suicide has to come back and re-teach a better lesson plan than the one they chose foolishly in the moment...to leave behind for others they say they care about...I say, not all suicides are handled the same...for if the person that committed the act and knew not what they were a doing, and acted as such...perhaps the parents of the child, that chose this road, will one day have to explain why the child wasn't given proper enough of instruction...

I say these things because it is my interpretation of Biblical hints, that once we take our children to God/Jesus and Holy Spirit and tell them the way to return, that these same children might fall off of the path a bit, yet one day, hopefully before it is too late, they return...

In another words...no one but God/Jesus and Holy Spirit, know what was in the heart, head and body of one a wanting to leave in a manner, warned not proper...By
God.

So rather than judge the moment, I will simply say that everytime that I hear of a life lost to their own design, I pray for them as if they were still alive and ask that Father, Jesus and Holy Spirit, forgive them for they knew not what they did or the destruction of other lives that they left in their uncaring wake of momentary behavior...

Just my thoughts for the moment...once again.
Thus I believe that because they crossed all the xx's instead of a crossing their t's and and a dotting their i"s...they have to come back and re-experience the life that they couldn't find bearable...and make it bearable given a ratio of a life lived to the third degree of severity than the one they just left...

For we were told that if we felt that we were unable to bear that which we were asked to bear for Him, that all we had to do in Jesus's Name, ask that our burdens be lighten and He promised He would do that very thing for us...as long as we had Faith, trust and belief...in Him...and only enough to fill a mustard seed, we could command mountains to move in our life...

Anyways, those are my thought reflections at this time...below I have included a correspondence with my oldest son...

I hope you find that which you might be looking for in it...I pray that if only one line makes sense to you and you only number one, that its seed taking root...will be blessed by God/Jesus and Holy Spirit.

To All Be Blessed
Love, Light and Peace
Tonie

Jada Stone, Associate Editor/Contributor

"And all things, whatsover you shall ask in prayer, believing, you shall receive."

St. Matthew 21:22

May 23, 2009

Dear Son:

What a wonderful letter...thank you for the confirmation that you are alright...that is all I need from time to time for my prayers for the safety of yourself and all those that are serving our country honorable, goes out towards...

I love our world that much!

Conversation with you has been quite limited, yet conversation with our Father, Jesus and Holy Spirit, are always on going...

For I know that each life that is given, effects others in the world and suffering is already at too high of a level...along with fear, pain and anguish...

Than you take those that choose to play the victim and thus try to go around creating other victims...man oh man, talk about drama kings and queens...you know what I mean?

I look forward son, to be able to once again be in your presence...to hold you, to kiss your cheek...and most definitely son, "it is what it is"...no more and definitely no less!

All one can do is "keep on a keeping on," for I know the per- dic a mont that you have found yourself in and asking why?

Financial and a desire to continue to serve your country...and glad am I that you are only looking for a year to help clear your bills so that you can join your lovely family and myself...what a day of total celebration that day will bring...

Yet know that like I do for your brother and all others, I do for you as well...for even here one can lose their physical life...

So the prayers from this special mom are always on going rather you are here or far away...for in God/Jesus and Holy Spirit Disneyland story book land...distance is not a problem..."Can You Hear Me?" Song, Bruce Springsteen, "Working On a Dream."

Son, it is a great CD album and one that I play when ever I write and for a large sense it calms me and helps me become even more creative than I am already...

I understand the need to not be able to give away your company's coordinates...for safety purposes and I understand that totally...or a date when you are a coming home to the states...I understand that as well.

Just know that where ever you are, my soul essence cord, am at your side anyways...to help comfort and protect you as I pray continuously that God/Jesus and Holy Spirit keep you and all over there, protected from the energies of others that means them harm...

Just a throwing out my thoughts, for all can do what ever it is that they call, "it is what it is..." Makes sense son? And if not, than just take what you need and please leave the rest...for it is my way and I can only call it, "that's my story and I am sticking with it."

All the above son brings me comfort, joy and peace. Comfort, joy and peace allows me the ability to keep on a dreaming larger and larger dreams...Instead of landing straight up and skinny at the level that the television show, "SuperNatural," left the world at in their final series, Armageddon Days...

An Armageddon that satan has now proclaimed the world as being the "master," over...

What do I have to say about the show's future...I guess it would be what ever they choose to write for in my world viewing estimation...evil is what ever you call it...

For I believe that Narcissism is perhaps the largest evil force that we have a going currently in the world...and some can call the devil the culprit...I call the naturally occurring state of one believing that they are God, when there is only One of Him...Although He is a combined force with Jesus and Holy Spirit, better known as you know, "The Trinity," or simply 3 times squared, multiplied and turned over again and again...

For when one believes that there is no other better and more qualified than themselves, that is in itself, a narcissistic thought reflection...for we are all replaceable...for we are all equally important to God/Jesus and Holy Spirit...

Thus when one reads Roman's and discover from Apostle Paul's writing's that we held the victory over satan that was accomplished back fifty or so years after Jesus left...

So to the writers of SuperNatural, I say this...please write and lead us towards the victory over satan and do not depict horrendous outcomes of continuing homelessness and poverty conditions and job losses and market crashes and war worlds a continuing and always a brewing in the back ground like we know that we have always chosen as our back ground melodies...

You know son, the part that states that in "end times," all kinds of seals have been broken from a land that just couldn't believe in such a simple and silly explanation... of "doing unto others that which one would have done unto you." Golden Rule and perhaps the only rule that makes any sense in my whole of things, picture that keep me hoping and a keeping on...

Trust me son...perfect I am not and I am okay with that...when those that surround me at church and see my tears...those tears aren't because I feel so bad about my life...all of the time...for unbeknownst to many, tears aren't always about sadness, for I shed tears for gladness most of all...

Gladness that someone I love has spent another day without mind, body and spiritual pain...

So when ever one sees me crying...understand son that there are many forms of tears...

I have even known persons that stated that they cry crocodile tears...and in their mind's imaginings they are focusing on imaginary times of yesterday when life was all that bad and the only way that they could amend that time was to hold onto the pain filled moment and time of yesterday...

Perhaps this is what actors and actresses do...when they are trying to play the role of the star that they have chosen to enact their part...in order to assimilate the person's every perceived movement and thought impressions...they assume the energy...perhaps that is the reason that they are paid so much for their performance...because now they have to somehow cast that energy away from them, after the show opens...sort of like an exorcism... kind of different of an analogy, wouldn't you say son?

Imagine having to play the role of a vampire? Imagine...no thank you...keep those blood sucking fangs away from my tickilous neck...hahahehehe...man oh man, the writers of Hollywood, really sometimes totally amaze me...

For I do so much see them a helping lead the world towards, drama, suspense, violence and a continual a chasing our tails kind of outlook...for many are a saying, if we are all going towards Armageddon, than what the hell is the point?

And I am a saying that to lose hope is to lose it all , so instead I simply live with the ideology that all is what it is...and all I can do is to keeping on a hoping, wishing and a praying...thus am continuing my walk and talk...even if all call me ridiculous and off the wall or certifiable...as your brother would say to me...what a card that brother of yours is...I know you know what I mean...all those others that will one day read this admission of mine...and know what I mean...say/ pray Amen!

Your brother is a trick card, unto himself...So long he has been a trying to discover who he is and what his purpose is...that he somehow missed the signs as he traveled he thought alone...

Never full understanding that all along he was being personally carried by Jesus...

"Foot Prints..."
"On night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed, two set of foot prints, in the sand.

One belonging to him and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand.

He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of foot prints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and so he questioned the Lord about it.
"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow You, you"d walk with me all the way.

But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of foot prints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."

The Lord replied, "my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

As you know son, this framed picture and poem along with the framed picture and poem about "Children Learn What They Are Taught," hangs in my bathroom in my residence and has for years now...

My bathroom also plays a key role in that which I will be expressing now...for we can't discuss any minute detail of your work there, so I have to fill in those missing spaces with my own world and I hope that you don't take it personal...although I do ask that if any parts of it, might possibly fit with your mental thoughts, than grab it and leave the rest for it must belong to someone else a needing its conformational influence in their life.

Too many times, in my life I had those persons that would take things out of content and come back angry at me for having said that when they just knew that I was a talking to them or about them when in actuality, I was a throwing it all out to who ever might catch any of its significant parts and found it personally aimed at them...

In defense of my action, I want you to know that I am merely one of many messengers out there a trying to ful fill my mission to God/Jesus and Holy Spirit, thus to try and silence me, is a like trying to kill the messenger and right now...all messengers a bring, light, hope and peace of God/Jesus and Holy Spirit should be raised up and not lowered...

For to keep these additional Knowning voices muted, is like a saying that only darkness matters and to be truth filled right now...all Hollywood writers and news media persons need to understand that a continuing the Light, Hope, and Peace creation/ creative manifestations is what they all should be a doing...

Writers such as the producers of Jericho...take that show to the next level, take it to President Obama a figuring out how to take a "pig's ear and turn it into a sow's ear."

In other words, taking a broken land due to man's eternal strive to over take others, instead of helping build self and others...symbiotically at the same time...

Perhaps writing about other nations once caught up in the imbalance of greed, fear and conquest issues a now figuring out how their behavior along with others a believing like themselves, was a helping their land return to Atlantis days...

For as you know son, we are what we say we are and our actions prove our point each and every time...

Something like that which you trust and love, will somehow love and trust you right back...

I went to your daughter's concert band concert last Sunday. I felt you there, even though you were far away...and I have already wrote about the experience which was like an Epiphany of yesterday...

Right down to the hospital nurse that gave me the contaminated Hepatitis B vaccine that took me out of work for quite a period of time...This nurse a showing me more compassion and caring than the hospital who could have been sued by me, yet wasn't, did...interesting isn't it?

Her sitting directly behind me, and she as well having a grand daughter in the same awards concert band as your own daughter...she too a going to Williams burg like your daughter and helping the band win the competition for their school.

Then my mind flipped to the Comfort to the Families of Desert Storm Troops, ceremony that the hospital put together using this same high school band and perhaps the same director that your daughter now has...and here you are again, back over in the Middle East, once again...synchronicities you know?

Too many synchroncitic moments to not pay attention to as appearing real and profound...even the one about never having ever appeared within the auditoriums confines...and that is after had loved a teacher there for more years than not...of the 16 I believe now years of knowing him...and dating him for at least 8 of them, hit or miss and mostly miss years...hahahehehe...ooh boy! Just gotta love those years for within all of them...this man was one of my greatest teachers, for he taught the lesson, well of distrust, and unforgiveness and accepting ones own part in the whole of things...

So as I sat in the confines of that room a looking over my present world of your little family displaced from you simply because they are the survivors of these recession period and point that we all are a journeying through in our own little ways...for I couldn't help but allow my mind to wonder back to the special moments in time that I carried this teacher with me and through it...yet never shared one moment in time within these walls confines...and then reflecting on all of the activities of the school that went on at this school that your daughter, my oldest grand daughter now attends and will graduate from...and later following your son doing the same if you still choose to live here after I leave...

The synchronicities were all just a bit over whelming and thus made it a very special moment as I again placed all that would ever sit in these seats...on my altar to God/Jesus and Holy Spirit...for I believe that one that sees ones divinity purpose/plan such as I do, can easily do this great divine feat of gifting back that which was gifted me by Our Father...

Only because of our birth DNA are we able to do this...and to be truthful, I don't believe that satan ever married...so thus many believe they are satan's child and if they are...well, I am glad that he isn't my Father....and because God doesn't make any mistakes...my children are of Him and no one else!

Thus being said...I know that where ever I go and what ever I do, will be blessed and multiplied to the tenth and beyond degree, for I know that at my lowest points, I am being carried...and I trust that what ever I ask for in His Name, and Jesus and Holy Spirit...will be given to me.

"And all things, whatsoever you shall ask in prayer, believing you shall receive," St. Matthew 21:22.

Of course son...when one wakes up to the fact that they are a "light house," to God/Jesus and Holy Spirit," that also comes with the responsibility of accepting as well all those not so good choices in life role that one plays in the whole of things.

Even if that choice was only yes that they would play...because until one does and re-opens that channel between Father, Son and Holy Spirit, they are trapped in yesterday and always a chasing after their own tail...

That is what makes one that is trapped into self and not free to think outside of the box, a looking for the larger picture...in that current moment occurring all on its own...one always has a choice to be lonely or not...I am never lonely for God/Jesus and Holy Spirit, always has me a writing and a doing this or that for all others and thus ending up rewarding me with the ensuing Grace also promised all in "end days," in Romans in our Bible.

"Thus in end times, I will pour additional Grace over all those unjustly handled."

"For vengeance's is mine, saith the Lord."

When dear son one is able to surrender over to God/Jesus and Holy Spirit, one never has to worry about another thing...for They are a handling things...all one has to do is to make the right choices that will brighten rather than dim another's world journey or destiny...

So there you have it...I look and feel from within, rather than feeling that someone else is responsible for how I am a feeling at any given time...taking responsibility for ones own knowness is what I am a trying to reveal here...

I also want to apologize if at any time that I was asleep to my mission and forgot to show the divine lesson of forgiveness, trust and gratitude...and thus might have passed on these not so good virtues of life patterns...

My story is that I was asleep and didn't know any better...and if any time you want to calculate how the passed incorrect virtue pattern was a good one or not so good one to follow...look to see how its action, manifested the reaction...did I have victories or losses?

Allow those memories to help you decide, good choices or bad and indifferent ones...for it seems that we are always looking towards others to fix that which ails us when in essence we were merely a looking for ourselves and didn't know it...yet thought our victory and reward lied within another a always a little bit out of our reach...yet when we reached around ourselves, we found the part of ourselves most needing a tune up...was our own self all along...funny how life always seems to come around and around...know what I mean dear son?

Just like sons a wanting to copy the energies of their father...or step father or adult figure that they have chosen most of all, to re-pattern...themselves after.


You know I love and miss you...and it won't be long before we will be in each other's physical presence...

Mom loves you alot...Your brother equally as much as well...
Be Blessed
And Always Go Everywhere with God/Jesus and Holy Spirit...especially asleep...for I believe God/Jesus and Holy Spirit have us working even then...and that is why we sometimes get up more tired than when we laid down...

Sleep both my sons, the sleep of angels for you are both that...
Mom



"Just like sons a wanting to copy the energies of their father...or step father or adult figure that they have chosen most of all, to re-pattern...themselves after." All mothers knowing that their daughters are a doing the same... For Children Do Learn That Which Is Taught Them."





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--- On Fri, 5/22/09, Andrew Wrote:

Subject: it is what it is
To: "Tonie Wallace"
Date: Friday, May 22, 2009, 11:24 PM
sorry havnt been talkative lately ,you had some good input about this work but i dont talk about it on the web,its not secured see,any way ill try calling sunday {technology go figure}remember if i dont its cause iam setting money back for r&r 1900.00 ticket i dont even talk date info cause that is unsafe aswell,i love you very much talk to you soon,love Andrew


Date: Fri, 15 May 2009 08:25:39 -0700
From: toniewallace@yahoo.com
Subject: RE: mothers day
To: Andrew:
May 15, 2009

Dear Son:


I am sorry that I haven't written for a while, kind of been in hibernation...and not much on the computer...

Anyways...I am grateful to be able to communicate with you at all...nothing like Dear ole Desert Storm days... when I got to call an 800 number every day just to see if you were alright as of 24 hours prior...see the computer can be a good thing as well as a bad thing when bad thinking people, use it...know what I mean?

Oh how happy you make me...thanks dear son for the head's up on the calling cards. I was wondering why the silence from both my sons, yet your call on Sunday, made it alright and Brent's visit and grand gifts filled me with so much joy!

I am grateful that both you guys know the meaning of giving to others, sometimes more than to yourself.

This is how I have always learned to be and don't regret a single moment of it, just like I am sure you and your brother are...
I don't know if Kim told you about how I cried when I received the $500 gift. Along with all the other money that you & Kim have gifted me, for I like to be the giver and when I am the receiver of it, it makes me so uncomfortable, especially when I remembered how I acted when you announced your decision to follow your dream...and told me that you would help me financially being the economy was a raising so much havoc with my business that has been in a decline since 2001,,,

You would think it would be the exact opposite, yet I don't live in an area that would place my work above eating and surviving...perhaps I was that great of a teacher of wellness that their need for me became less, because I taught them how to fish...and thus fed them a lifetime...

At least that is how I have chosen to view it...any other way would mean that I wasn't at all appreciated...and losing another earth bound angel to this area really isn't a big deal...know what I mean?

So back to you and the moment you made me eat the words that I stated as to, "I don't want your blood money, for you are worth millions to me and not a hundred thousand dollars...give or take a few thousand...

I also cried because you made me proud to know that you would risk your life so that others like me and your family could have more...

That dear son is so cool...you be a cool dude...your brother as well...for his reasons were a bit different, yet similar to your own...help self, help others, give to others and you both do that job well.

I am very proud to be your mother...

I feel love and peace when I think thoughts of you and I know that God/Jesus and Holy Spirit celebrate as well, like I do, and thus I know that They are keeping you safe from harm...

With that peace filled knowledge, I can rest when others believe I am not...Also son please forgive for all my moments in time I was trying to be the mom instead of only a friend...I had to let my truths ring forth...and if at any time, you or brother, felt that I over stepped my limits...In defense, allow me to say, finding the middle ground is not an easy thing to do when one is a parent and only want her sons highest Good to God and mankind, to come forth...

Perhaps when you reach the age of 57 and counting vastly towards 58...you will understand why I had to press forward, even when all told me I should not...for until one sees the whole picture of the power of God/Jesus and Holy Spirit's, whole protection...plan, and without it, life is about drama, chaos and unrest.

Besides son, wouldn't you want me to tell you the truth, for have I ever told you anything differently? If so, than perhaps it was a small white lie and I had to say it so that I wouldn't hurt your feelings...

And son, when I disagree with you, it is because I see things differently than yourself...it doesn't mean that I find you stupid or dim witted when I disagree...please remember that always okay?

We all should have the right to disagree when we don't agree...for we live in a world that for the most part, view things differently than what we do...I just wish that we could at least agree on the parts that would make this a better world for all, instead of only the elite few that seem to want to own more than they could ever possibly utilize adequately...for if as you know, we aren't a standing together for a better way for all to live peace ably, we are only a moving closer to destruction....

I am grateful that your brother has chosen to remain state side...He told me that it was a decision he reached after asking God/Jesus and Holy Spirit to put the decision heavy upon his heart for he knew that what ever decision he reached, would be the right one...

I understand he has his own apartment now and that is a good thing, for he needs time to come back from the war energies and a working it all out alone with God/Jesus and Holy Spirit...is better than a trying to come to a good place with the distractions of others...making it a bit harder...know what I mean?

Son, I haven't been able to get the products sent out to you yet...this financial period I have been experiencing is making it rather hard to come up with any extra cash and the money you and Kim gave me, went for current bills, yet I am still rather hope filled, that a new day dawneth is almost upon me...time will tell.

Keep me in your prayers...for when it all breaks loose for me financially; it will be also for my family and friends...for just like you and your brother...we are most alike!


Love you lots and no I am not through writing you...only for a moment in time...

Be Safe and Always Go with God/Jesus and Holy Spirit a always a leading the way...
Be Blessed and Know That You Are!
Mom


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--- On Wed, 5/6/09, Andrew wrote:
Subject: RE: mothers day
To: "Tonie Wallace"
Date: Wednesday, May 6, 2009, 10:52 PM
ive been just watching my calls plus calling cards were sold out 4 sometime.i can keep in touch with you like this 4 now right anyway take it easy love you mom ,Andrew


Date: Mon, 4 May 2009 16:54:52 -0700
From: toniewallace@yahoo.com
Subject: Re: mothers day
To: Andrew
Hello son:

I know that you love me, thank you so much for all that you are doing for me and everyone!

You are the greatest son!
Be Blessed always
Love, Light and Peace
Mom

Thanks for the email...I hadn't heard from you for a while and I miss you.
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--- On Mon, 5/4/09, Andrew Wrote:Subject: mothers day
To: "Tonie Wallace"
Date: Monday, May 4, 2009, 12:23 PM
well i guess its too close to send letters stating i love you wishing you a special mothers day we dont get very good supply of cards so ill be calling this time but know i still love and miss you love Andrew