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Response Letter to M.J.'s Response Email Letter
May 19, 2009
Rev. Tonie C. Wallace Dream-Founder and Director
Dear All One Family:
Back at you once again...Yes I totally agree, one never knows what they will find when one comes to this site...some will say, "sorry that isn't how I remember things, yet because they were my perception moments, who is to say really what it was that actually took place, besides this is my story and Jada's that we are a writting, each can call real what ever they want to call it...
Take for instance this email posting that I did today...to M.J., that I gave three newsletter conversations towards...it does have a happy and a sad moment contained in it...yet never less the friendship still trives rather than diminish and for that reason alone...it was a very important moment in time to be shared by all, for I believe lots of things are being given to not only the receiver of my personal message, yet all that will one day read it and see what it is that I see wonderful about that one shared moment in time...
I also included my today free email today's reading from tarot.com...for M.J. it might be another synchronistic moment as it was for me, being only yesterday and the day prior I spoke of many changes and transformations a occurring rather we want to see them or not...
So Please enjoy the journey...wordy I am...yet well intentioning, I also am...
Be Blessed One and All, Always
Love, Light and Peace
Tonie
May 19, 2009
Dear wonderful sis:
I was very grateful to see that my correspondence in response to yours, was welcomed. That gave me lots of continual hope that our relationship hadn't been severed due to my Divine lead self perceived revelations.
When one has knowingly picked up their own cross and are a carrying it all over the land a proclaiming the good news that God/Jesus and Holy Spirit aren't dead and that not to drink of them, is rather quite silly, yet I realize that is my own perception.
Personally at this very moment in my life, I am so over those that would have me keep my silence...by doing what the world I have called my own most meaning filled moments in time being lived, was called their norm.. (silence is golden) .I somehow lost my own wits and bearings.
Sexual Harassment
I remembered telling a fellow worker, male about my forced by knife point rape by a supervisor of our company. He told me to simply grow wings like a duck and allow it to flow over you.
This married man and father of three children...felt that as a female worker in a factory of the majority being males, and that by myself allowing the odds to be so great against me, that I somehow gave permission to this type of behavior. Rape by knife point, and subsequent stalking incidences?
Hmmmm...harsh and incorrect words? Or corporate America that I by accepting the job position...in my late twenty's?
I say that I was purely a clock number on a card...for how I handled that matter simply due to the threats that I was a given if I ever told of his prior prison days for armed burglary and rape...to my brother and his wife and children and especially my own, for we were all a living together at the time.
How I handled that serious matter was not a calling the police into it, for a dear friend from high school and my oldest full brother's, best friend.
One of our graduating from high school, town police officer. A person that I know loved me more than he ever would admit openingly to. For I represented all that his mother didn't want, a pre-fab family.
I couldn't give him the children he wanted of his own, only a substitution of my two sons from my first marriage, children obviously a missing their own dad something awful.
Children a not all that happy to see my boyfriend and him a rather a feeling the same way...hey, you get what you give out...
A man anxious never less, to wonder later had he done the right thing by a walking away from me, just because I wasn't what he or his mother wanted in a selection of perfection.
So he asked me to move in with him and give my children to their real dad for it was now he turn to help raise both our sons...and then when I told him that I would never relinquish either of my sons for any mere mortal men, for only God/Jesus and Holy Spirit will I surrender them to!
My dear K.M., told me that he would allow my sons to move in with us...only I shouldn't allow him and my sons to ever be left alone with, for I just might come home one day and find all three of them, hanging up in the closet...being I knew of all the stories he had told me of his step father and how the crazy man had raised him and his largest fear that he would turn into the Heckle and Jekyll character as well.
Stories about him being tied to the bed and made to learn his addition tables by flash cards and that when he got it wrong, he got a spanking with the belt.
I had no other choice but to walk away from love that could have been; for it was my children that I had the stamina to keep, keeping on...
So in spite of all my former boyfriend/idios, I chose not to report the incident to the police for I didn't want K.M., a going after J.G....even though, K.M. and I did get together after a brief interlude of separation and unfortunately it was right after the two rape incidents that J.G. had committed and K.M., told me that he got a S.T.D. from me, Chlamydia...
Had I not have been raped, I would have known if it was my rapist that gave me the disease or actually K.M., for like you M.J., I too have always liked the tall, dark haired six foot type...with a cutting edge of high adventure and cutting razor edged men.
Those guys that bring nothing more than challenges and reasons to help cure that which was asleep in myself...cataylst types of men.
So I have never been sure if K.M., gave me the S.T.D., or J.G., aka...rapist, did. K.M. was a tramp and high adventure was his middle name...my brother and him grew apart when I started to date K.M. In fact my brother told him that as for a man and a person, the only fault he felt he had was that he thought his own penis to be the all and all and that he had watched him down through the years, throw away wonderful women and he found him disgusting in that reason.
Thus when my brother passed, K.M., couldn't bring himself to go to the neatest brother he had ever had...because of me. I single handedly pulled a once close relationship apart...so therefore by my not reporting it to the police...I somehow help K.M., keep his wits about him and retire from the police force of which I have heard he has...
In case I didn't tell you before...how did I stop the rapist from a stalking me and a leaving me love notes in my tool box at work?
I didn't grow wings and allowed it to float off of my back, I instead told my unionj committee man what had happened and the threats to my family and children and myself life, and that you can check his prison record and not see that he was one of those hard headed coconut headed men, that don't learn the lessons of yesterday and go on and stop their control ideaolgy way...that costs many their health and mental facilities, simply because for years I hated him for what he had done...I at not time enjoyed any of the moments that occurred and for years I tormented after the stolen moments by knife point that could have cost me my own and that of my immediate family for I couldn't even tell my own brother because like K.M., the police officer boy friend, kind of sort of...he too would have taken off after him and unfortunately my brother knew lots of desperate money a needing to be earned men...
My telling the committee man what happened, lead to the supervisor being fired for having lied on his job application...the part of no felony charge.
Yet him getting fired was not a good thing, for that is what he had threaten would end my family and my own life...were he to lose his job or 9 month pregnant wife for the first time...since he had been released from prison.
Also, things got rather sticky at work as well, for those that thought J.G., was the cat's meow...women included, after hearing the story from the grape vine...divided up sides against me and unfortunately, I had supervisiors that went out drinking with the man and thought him all that...and they brought forth the ruling that I couldn't receive any help from the guys that I worked with, only my floor leader...
Well my floor leader was busy the day I was a handling a $60K plus piece called the Hamilton Standard...just as I needed my floor leader who was a standing only a few feet from my machine with another fellow shop worker...and was too wrapped up in conversation and a checking out my hind side...as I struggled with what seemed like a over hundred pound piece of steel bearing...
Standing on two wooden platforms and hovering over a almost ninety degree drop...set me up for a crushed disc in my low back...being the company argued that they weren't to blame for my injury...I had to file harassment papers against the company and the company managed to get it dropped and they awarded me a $10K settlement...
It has been a long time since I left that company and all of the so called fun times of my peers...thankfully it has been a long time since I stopped dreaming nightmare dreams of still being employed there...and working hard all night and waking up to working hard in the day time as well, to never get thanked or paid for my efforts.
I do have a letter that was given me by the company personnel director who hired me and after my quitting after 7 years...he told me that if my job ever came up again that I could walk back in and go on working for them.
I am sure that he wouldn't have written that type of letter, had he believed anything my co-workers might have allowed him to know.
The man who actually made my world at this ball bearing company once called Big Beaver Screw Products...was my knight in shinning armor...the man that 7 months after dating him, we got married.
For no one at work really thought him all that wonderful, until he and I got together...No one wanted to hear his boisterous mouth when ever he got angry or upset and yes he knew all about the rapist and threats...and what had occurred, he even knew about my policeman friend and our story...
In fact one day, he and his wife and my husband and myself, all went out on K.M., 60 foot katamaurang on Lake Erie and had a phenonmenal day!
Sort of our closure day on what could have, yet didn't occur...both of us happy for the choices we had made...and later K.M., telling me that his first daughter carries my middle name...so cool! And that his wife was a wanting a second child and he thought he had barely survived parenthood with one child and here his greedy wife was a wanting another!
I told him that I believed that the healthiest relationships survive when a child is forced to get along with another sibling...for two was just as easy as one if you spaced them out enough...and that his daughter now being two...perhaps was a good time like his wife had suggested.
So no, K.M., didn't get a whole lot of sympathy from me...no whining here...and somehow we had lost touch from each other all of those years...yet I do remember telling him that one day he would read what I had to write of those moments in time that we shared...before it changed and we moved out of each other's range...and about that which I couldn't tell him then...
So if you are upset with me for not having asked you how you and your precious dog is a faring at this point in time...understand that I have placed this newsletter site on my classmate.com site and like true to what I told K.M., as we fast approach our 30th class reunion time...here is where you can find me all, a writting my tail off...hahahehe...
I would like to attend it, yet feel that I haven't arrived where I thought I would be...
So if you don't see me there, know that one day you might just live long enough to see that day of return...Till then it is what it is...
Just like you M.J.:
The tarot cards that I drew for you not once, yet twice was done as validation to me...for when I first dealt them all out...most of them were back wards and I said, I must not have looked at the deck very well and I must place them all in proper order or else risk this kind of display....so I righted them all in the deck and reshuffled them all again and cut the deck as always in half and dealt the cards out from the cut portion...
And again all the cards even the fill in card of "total surrender," that I personally marked in the blank card decks presented to one and all that purchase them...that card came front and center, once again...
That is why I told you that if they didn't fit where you were a standing at that moment in time, than it had to be me that I was a mirroring...so rather than just a saying, because I prayed for the God/Jesus and Holy Spirit, wellness factor be revealed to M.J., that it has to represent only her...for as you know and wrote..."we are all one," just because someone else receives a message, does not mean, that it was only given for the one that needed its wake up calls...know what I mean?
I do feel for the injury that you loved animal received...I am sorry for all the discomfort that it might have caused you...perhaps it was nothing more than Heavenly Father, Jesus and Holy Spirit a telling you silently, that before this animal became yours, this precious animal of yours, was His...and to celebrate each moment that you have them and when you don't, they await your return Home...just like all of my previous pets that I once held and loved...
Many that have viewed my presence here, see somehow that I am a being punished for one reason or another, I say that I am merely in the transitional phase of my life and that the best is yet to come...rather that is real or only delusional thinking...time will tell...for all that I have told others about their life, has come to pass...some exactly how I once seen it and others, changed a bit as they grew to see how they were a creating their own reality as they moved along life's many learning paths...
So dear friend, take great hope in knowing that God/Jesus and Holy Spirit are a guiding your life, ever so wonderfully, even when those moments are filled with bitter sweet moments in time that sometimes take your breath away...just know that the breathe less moments that Father/Jesus and Holy Spirit deliver us all...are good, no matter how they may first appear...
I love you girl and always will...nothing you could or anyone else say, would ever change that factor for in this life, there are many forms of love and caring...my no longer being held to silence, is my greatest gift given me by God/Jesus and Holy Spirit.
Thus, said, thanks for allowing me the ability to explore some past moments in time that silence had to be held to protect the unknowning ones...
Be Blessed Always dear sis!
Love, Light and Peace
Tonie
Nothing Written In Stone: Today
General Daily Horoscope Influences
The sensitive Pisces Moon joins Uranus at 11:44 am EDT, shocking us with feelings that can throw us off balance. But it's not about the intensity of an emotion; it's more about the source. We may react to a situation that doesn't intimately involve us, rather than from a personal interaction. Later, we are moved to share our needs when the Moon enters spontaneous Aries at 7:30 pm EDT. In both cases we may be surprised at the suddenness of change. Listen to more about today on Rick Levine's Daily Planet Pulse Podcast.
Virgo Horoscope for you
You may be rethinking vacation plans now or juggling your responsibilities so you ...
Tuesday, May 19th, 2009 -- You may be rethinking vacation plans now or juggling your responsibilities so you can squeeze in a quick trip. But don't assume you can do this alone. You'll be much better off if you have the support of your co-worker or partner, so involve him or her in your scheming and dreaming from the very beginning. Just keep in mind that nothing is written in stone. Whatever you decide today could easily change next week.
The Discovery of Neptune
May 18th, 2009 by Jeff Jawer
Those who follow Astrology (and those who don’t) know that we are in a period of profound change. The astrological shifts began with Pluto’s entry into Capricorn in January 2008 and grew more evident with last fall’s opposition between structured Saturn and deconstructive Uranus, a pattern that doesn’t end until next summer. Saturn’s entry into Libra this fall brings it into a series of tense 90-degree squares with potent Pluto, a powerful symbol for deep-rooted changes personally and collectively. Later next year electric Uranus and expansive Jupiter will enter Aries, a cardinal sign like Libra and Capricorn. This powerful pattern suggests that transformation is inevitable. However, whenever we are confronted with the notion of a major shift, especially one involving complex outer planets like Saturn, Uranus and Pluto, it’s common to expect the worst. And, of course, our current financial climate, along with two ongoing religious wars, has already laid thick a carpet of unease.
Good news, though, comes in several forms. The first is simply that we humans have so many unexplored avenues of creativity that there are many answers to the problems that we’ve created for ourselves. Second, the cardinality of the coming patterns is associated with the creation of something new rather than simply the destruction of the old. Cardinal signs initiate the four seasons of the year and correspond to conscious shifts of direction. There also is more gold in the pot of possibilities from the current conjunction of visionary Jupiter with spiritual Neptune and compassionate Chiron in Aquarius. This trio may be building a network of as yet unconscious awareness that may well blossom into an expanding vision of human potential.
An underreported astrological story is Neptune’s return to its place of discovery. The planet of faith and imagination was discovered in 1846 at the dawn of a shift to new political freedoms in Europe and the rising abolitionist movement to end slavery in the United States. Neptune expanded our solar system and our consciousness with a modern rebirth of metaphysics and spiritual values. Neptune returned to its discovery position of just under 26 degrees of Aquarius last month and, after turning retrograde on May 28, will begin moving forward at this point in November 2010. These “returns” of Neptune may infuse us with both the positive and negative meanings of the planet. The U.S. government’s investments to save failing companies scare those who see these as socialist tendencies that will undermine our capitalist system. Karl Marx’s Communist Manifesto, published in 1848, certainly represents the Neptunian ideals of a more egalitarian society. However, Neptune’s tendency to blur details spurs emotional responses that are not helpful to discerning and defining the complex relationship between public and private interests that is in question now.
Constructively, Neptune reminds us that we are all connected. This spiritual truth is being brought home on the material level through collective economic contraction. While becoming lost in fear and projecting it through one’s individual political lens is understandable, we also may grow more compassionate toward one another. A culture less rooted in consumerism might overcome the isolation of modern life with more fulfilling community activities.
Faith is be one pole of Neptune’s force and forgiveness is another. Compassion is not something to reserve for the most unfortunate among us; it is a gift to give to ourselves and to our enemies. The dissolving force of Neptune can melt outmoded ideological boundaries, creating new syntheses of religion, science and politics. One of the challenges of working with this planet, though, is its tendency to create confusion through a lack of details. However, confusion can be an ally when entrenched patterns resist change. The clouds of uncertainly make it difficult to know where to stand and fight and, therefore, force us to let go. It is from the emptiness of surrendering what we know that the next forms of self and society will flow.
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From: M.J.:
Subject: Re: Fw: Re: Fw: [Spiritual Ministries, Newsletters] Oh Boy, Disneyland!
To: "Tonie Wallace"
Date: Sunday, May 17, 2009, 9:34 AM
Wow - took a few readings .....will read again and again. Thank you. Love you.....MJ
My Georgia was attacked by another dog yesterday around 1:20pm.....not long after all our emails. It was one of the strangest days I have had - - defending life, and caretaking - - and trusting guardian angels were actually all around us.....because the wolfhound that attacked her missed her carotid, jugular and trachea - 12 staples in her neck though. and her right arm a few as well with nymerous puncture wounds. I am in a different plane forever now. She is home and resting. As am I today. Roo was unharmed. So, as you do and always have thank the energies around and help me continue to see my safety versus my vulnerability. Especially now when I continue to work through all this. Love Love MJ, Georgia and Roo
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